I do blame my father for my stubbornness, but really, I have no one to blame but myself.
In any case, I am definitely stubborn. Here are two cases (one being a few seconds ago):
- I mentioned a while back that I was trying to choose between two schools. One was cheaper but the other had people that I have started friendships with already. I don’t want the stress of doing that again. Last month (November) was when I should have applied to that cheaper school. At that time, I had already applied to the expensive school. My mom texts me on November 30, the last day to apply, “Last Day to Apply to [Cheaper School]”. I look at the text, and then think, “No. I’m going to [Expensive School].” I already have friends there, and I already know the layout of the campus pretty well. I know where about three things are at the cheaper school. So yeah, stubborn.
- I have started to fill out my FAFSA (am I adulting yet). It asks me what my living conditions will be in regards to the University that I had listed (which was the expensive school). I decided to put “On campus,” even though, as I said in the previous post, the cheapest option is $8k (however that’s for the whole year, yet my plan is to do an internship the second semester and not live on campus, but that’s not the point). Let me state for the record that my parents haven’t even confirmed my enrollment because it costs $220 just to confirm. That’s living off campus.
Yeah. I’m stubborn. But I don’t care. I want to make my dreams a reality. I once read somewhere that if your dreams don’t scare you, you aren’t dreaming big enough. My dream is to work in Ireland. Of course that scares me! It scares me to death! But, I’m hoping that a) living on campus will prepare me for that, and b) that I won’t care and it’ll work out in the end.
I’m stubborn; deal with it.